First wave of nervousness. . .

I’ll be heading out of town for some pretest and a pre op class the second week of October for my surgery. I am still very excited about it and yes, still trying not to think of death. *eek* I know personally that I’m not going to know. . . unless it is after the fact, but I worry about what will happen with my family.

I don’t think it is being self-centered or ego boosting to say this, but I am part of the backbone to my family. My mom, sisters, nieces and my kids need me here. I’m a great sounding board and I worry for them, what will happen if the worst happens.

People ask others. . .are you afraid of death? Death - no. Leaving the ones behind is what fears me. I know if the worst happens, they will get by, but I would not wish that on anyone. I’m sure this topic will plague me as time draws closer to the day of surgery. I wish it wouldn’t. . .but that is life, and I am only human.

*kiss the ones you love and say your sorry to the ones your battling - Tomorrow is a second closer. . . *

My First "E" - - - :-D

Passing Glances is a HIT. :-D

I recieved my first E from the Editors of Literotica! I am thrilled, giddy, and just plain happy. The story is called, as the above link suggests. . .Passing Glances. It is the story of two people brought together after being rude, then thrown together after one endures a tragedy.

I am in awe that the Editor liked the story so much to reward it with an "E" . . . It is MY FIRST!! (oops mentioned that)

I hope you read it and please vote, comment, heck send me an email through Lit and let me know what you think. . .

Just be happy today and enjoy yourself. . .ohhh also... The date for the Gastric Bypass is October 24. I'll post more on that as it gets closer, or as thoughts descend upon me.

Vacations. . .

I am home from ours!!

We went to several different places in the Upper Peninsula of Michigan. This is a photo off the web, of one of the many sites a person can see in the UP. I've been here, this is Tahquamenon Falls. . .but that was another trip, during another time. . .;) This trip was spent in or around the Munising area.

It was the second time for us and just as wonderful as the first. We've been all over the Upper Peninsula, camping or staying in Hotels. This trip was our fifth or sixth trip. We spent it in hotels - though I do enjoy camping - - sometimes - - - I think. . .

This time our trip was short and so packing up a tent and sleeping bags was pushed to the side so the pleasure of the trip wasn't shortened by the chore of breaking camp and pit toilets. ;) Though we did use some of those here and there on the trip.

I wish I knew how to put my own pictures up, eventually I will have to submit to technology and learn how to do that, even start my own web page site and not a blog, so I can host my own pics. I have several beautiful ones, but will do my best to find ones on the web for now that represent the places I saw, maybe we'll get lucky and I'll find some of the same things I took pictures of too.

First we stayed at the Comfort Inn in Munising. The stay was nice, not anything spectacular. . .and damn I wished it had been Queen beds instead of the cramped full ones. (Kings are really nice. ;) ) - - - the spare cot for my son was $10.00 that was a bit much in my opinion. . .*rollseyes* but he's getting to old and tall to squeeze between his sisters, or sleep at their feet.

We thought of taking the glass bottom boat tour, (which would have shown us 3 wrecks on the Great Lakes and a tour around Grand Island) . . .after all that was the reason we headed to the UP to begin with, but the tour was only half running and I wasn't so sure, nor was my spouse that we wanted to pay the cash for such a short stint, even at half price. . . So we opted instead to drive and take in scenic overpasses and make our way to various waterfalls on the trip.

One waterfall, Laughing Whitefish was an extremely lovely one to view (this link actually is very close to a photo I took. . .:) . . .I tell myself this everytime I remember gasping for breath on the return trip back up the stairs and the hike to the car. lol . . .I should stress, the walk wasn't strenous to anyone in good health and moderately good shape. I am not in good shape, nor close to it, but I can tell you. . .I hiked everywhere the family did and though it was hard, I know my kids will have me in their memories of being there with them when they took in the sights of God's beautiful world.

We also so many other beautiful places that day and eventually traveled down toward Escanaba.

We stayed at a simple motel, it was the basic, the kind where all you really want is a place to shower, sleep and pee! It was however 10 times better than the Comfort Inn. . .why? BECAUSE of the Queen Size bed. lol. . .I really don't like the small ones, they are too cramped for good sleeping, great for intimite play, but that is nil when kids are in the other bed beside you. lol. . .

Fayette, a small iron smelting town was one of the stops we made in this area. It was very informative and cool. I loved the view given to us the visitors, though I know it wasn't this beautiful when it was a working pig iron village.

I have a pic very similar to this one. :) Lovely view.
And this one. . . :D
And this one - minus the boats. . . :)

Beautiful land the UP. . .I can see myself living there, so can my spouse, so that is a plus. ;)

Ohhh we saw more, but I shouldn't fill my blog with to many links. . . The highlight of the trip for the Husband?? This was his goal: Cabela's in Dundee Michigan, the lower part of the state. ;)

It was a great vacation, but like most. . .I was glad to be home and back in my bed. . . MY Queen size bed. . .:)